coupledom

it's a rainy, chilly sunday morning. perfect time to update, i say, with a meandering musing sort of update. i wish i could write a review but i have only seen one movie since that last time i wrote. i suppose that's related to what is on my mind.

i have only a couple other times been part of a couple. a dyad. a unit, if you will. it's a strange state of being. it has been on my mind the last two days since j and i just attended two dinner parties on friday and last night. it was the first time we'd ever been asked to be anywhere together within a group and i was basically just curious to see how it would work out.


friday we were invited (a-ha! first oddity is saying 'we') to one of my co-worker's home for dinner. she invited another co-worker and her partner. so the house is amazing and the meal is BEYOND amazing - chicken kabobs over cous cous with some amazing bread i can't name and the most flavorful salad i've ever had. dessert was from a nearby bakery, etc. i found the conversation amusing. out of the six, four work for the same company so there was that commonality. the only time i felt uncomfortable was during the inevitable, "so how did you two get together?" i wasn't embarrassed or anything - it was just the first time it was ever asked. so, if we stay together we'll be asked it again, i'm sure. i don't know i just find it strange to be answering that question. i usually ask others and 'ooohh' and 'aawwww' over the story. i'm sincere in my gushing to others but there's a part of me that feels others don't necessarily care but it's considered polite to ask. why?

yesterday m decided to host a 'seis de mayo' dinner. it was a good time. most of the usual suspects were there. m made the most delicious enchiladas EVER - potato, spinach, zucchini and mushroom all in one. to.die.for. so we all ate and then we played a really...um, different?...game called "Fact or Crap" and it consisted of taking turns reading statements from a card and then having everyone hold up a sign that says either (you guessed it) fact or crap. it had a funky token system. being there with j was alright. he knew most people and others were just trying to get to know him. what made it uncomfortable was all me. i tend to have a "quiet viciousness". when it comes to trivia/knowledge games- that side of me really comes out. i am way more competitive than i want to admit. it really began when everyone was just playing with the tokens and not listening as i tried to read the directions. i am VERY into playing by the rules. the others? not so much. it was pointed out more than once that i was the only earth sign in the room and therefore the only grounding force. yeah, not such a good place to be in. it didn't matter because they outvoted me decided to play by their own rules. in the end j and i tied with the most tokens. good thing i think brains are sexy.

as i type this crap in my head out i see that there's really nothing to do but keep my own self in check. sigh.