to know, know, know him is to love, love, love him

and i DO!

this man just let me charge $2500 on his credit card to keep my car. my car has been a lot of trouble with me lately but i AM TRULY GRATEFUL to have it. when i called HSBC they told me that it had already been set up for repossesion. i almost freaked. i realize that i had prayed earlier for God to present me with $2000. i said that i have no idea where that money was going to come from but not only did i get that- i got more than that. and he even left his card here and told me to do what i had to do. i'm torn because what i need to do is give myself $2000 to pay off my rent and other bills. my rent is due, a credit card payment, an old bank account. oh- that was funny- the old bank account people threatened to freeze my new bank account becuase i'm not supposed to have my current account with one unpaid. i'm sad and scared and grateful all at once. what can i do? i have no idea.

i'll just keep praying.

"you're no match for a dangerous clot"

no matter how formidable you are!

that was an advertisement i just heard on my tv.

ok, who else is addicted to 'heroes'? i mean, i really need an intervention. luckily, next week is the last new episode before the holiday break. phew!

it snowed here today. so pretty.

money woes, wedding vows and tv addiction

so yeah, life keeps going.

i have had so much go on since i last posted. i suppose the biggest of all is that my guy proposed and i said yes and now i'm going to be someone's wife. you know, never when i was a kid was i EVER one of those women who planned their wedding. the thought of frills, lace, bows, tulle --- all that stuff makes me want to puke. i'm not kidding. so anyway, there's been lots of drama with our families about the details. uh, scratch that, there's been lots of drama with my family about details. part of my disdain for weddings is that they really are shows for the people who come. well, that's how i see it. otherwise, why spend thousands of dollars?! well, it was never my intention to have a wedding. i've taken enough psych./soc./sw classes, worked with enough people and watched enough tv (more on that later!) to know that the focus should be on the marriage and not the wedding. luckily, that's how i've always felt. BUT i caved. just a little bit anyway. i put my foot down and said that i will be married in portland because i live here. i did, however, give my mom the go ahead to plan a wedding in atlanta. i acknowledged it'd be hella difficult for anyone in my family but her to make it out here. sigh, sigh, sigh. she's being really great for paying for everything but i know that this is just for her. i'm sure it'll be beautiful and lovely...but not mine.

speaking of, most of why we relented is because the sheer amount of money involved in getting a venue, paying for food, clothing, etc. was just mind blowing. on top of that i'm rebounding from some pretty intense financial pitfalls. i took on a second job and i can see a light at the end of the tunnel. it's really, really dim but i know it's there.

tv. oh cursed tv. i'd say part of my money issues could be easily solved by cancelling my cable. i am addicted to it. for real. i think my fourth or fifth thought today was - "YES! heroes is on tonight". well, ok, that's on a network channel but i love the crystal clear picture. i know it's a great escape mechanism and with the stress i've felt lately it's no wonder. all that being said, it's gotta stop. i'm weaning myself off. working on thursday nights and missing 'grey's anatomy' is something that helps. so, here's to breaking off yet another addiction. lawd.

good things are happening though. i got all moved again. it was during pretty awful weather but my friends all helped - or tried to but the truth is i have very little stuff. i love the apartment. where it is isn't optimal. the building is an older house and i've taken to calling it 'the dorm'. all in all, it's great though. just enough room for me and the kitchen is fabulous!

i did see a movie sometime in there....