so i am again lying in bed. this happens occasionally - the stress of life and lack of sleep will combine to make me completely useless...and snotty. sorry, too much information. so while i hate to be sick it does mean more time for movies. yay!
bus 174. this documentary looks at the taking of a bus in rio de janeiro, brazil. a man named sandro takes twelve of the passengers hostage and what ensues is a long standoff between him and the police. the movie talked a lot about the problems in rio: racism, poverty and homeless children and mass violence. this man sandro was a victim of all of the above. the filmmakers obviously had a lot of sympathy for his plight in life so it is a bit of a skewed view of the incident. however, the movie overall involved interviews with everyone from the SWAT team to a social worker who used to work with sandro. it's a gritty emotional roller coaster. i won't spoil the end but i will say it doesn't end well. how could it? a-.
ghost dog way of the samuari. i'm a huge jim jarmusch fan. HUGE! however, i never saw this one before, well, because i have no interest in swords and such. my bad. i really enjoyed this movie. i liked the way he can blend such contradiction and have it work: lots of violence along with serenity. forrest whitaker was excellent as a loner expert assassin. as in all jarmusch films i've experienced - a cast of misfits plus sparse yet meaningful dialouge make for a poignant movie. a-.
the wedding singer. i personally believe this is was one of the last good adam sandler movies. no, it's not an oxymoron. as with ben stiller, i rely, or relied, on adam for comic relief from my heavy indie/documentary watching. this movie has got it all - silly physical humor and wacky situations all in a romantic comedy that delivers well on both romance and comedy. i am not ordinarily a fan of drew barrymore (because she makes me think of mayonnnaise) but her cutesy affect worked well in this movie. the regular happy madison crew is all there too and how can you resist an 80 year old performing 'rapper's delight'? b+.
Wednesday, March 29, 2006
Tuesday, March 28, 2006
home sick
i woke up coughing yellow thick stuff so i called in. i felt like ass. j was incredibly awesome and brought me chicken soup and some movies, what a sweetie! sigh. anyway he stuck around and watched this movie with me. i've learned how not to be distracted now. *wink.
hollywood shuffle. i admit i had not even heard of this movie and probably for a reason. this 1987 robert townsend film takes a hard hitting, heavy handed yet hilarious look at hollywood's relationship with african-americans. robert plays an aspiring actor, part-time "winky dinky dog" worker in l.a. he auditions for the role of 'jimmy', a 'street hood, jive-talking, pimp' of sorts. he wins the role and has to cope with the emotional fall out of potentially playing such a character. the whole film is awkwardly filmed but according to the package, it was all done in one take and budgeted through his Visa card. when i wasn't laughing i was yelling 'amen' when he takes on the stereotypes that blacks have had to play in almost all hollywood films. it's a great little movie- thought provoking but in a fun way -not that there's much fun in racism. i recommend it for a great afternoon rental. a-
hollywood shuffle. i admit i had not even heard of this movie and probably for a reason. this 1987 robert townsend film takes a hard hitting, heavy handed yet hilarious look at hollywood's relationship with african-americans. robert plays an aspiring actor, part-time "winky dinky dog" worker in l.a. he auditions for the role of 'jimmy', a 'street hood, jive-talking, pimp' of sorts. he wins the role and has to cope with the emotional fall out of potentially playing such a character. the whole film is awkwardly filmed but according to the package, it was all done in one take and budgeted through his Visa card. when i wasn't laughing i was yelling 'amen' when he takes on the stereotypes that blacks have had to play in almost all hollywood films. it's a great little movie- thought provoking but in a fun way -not that there's much fun in racism. i recommend it for a great afternoon rental. a-
Sunday, March 26, 2006
i thought this was for movies too?
yeah, i've slacked on the 'reviewing' the movies i've seen lately.
sneakers. i preface this review with the disclaimer that most of this movie was watched when j was over and so i was a bit distracted. ANYWAY - i was drawn to this movie by the cast listing: robert redford, sidney poitier, ben kingsley, david straitharn, dan akroyd, river phoenix, etc. plus, it came out in 1992 and i missed it somehow! the plot was not so spectacular - smart fugitive told he has to right his wrongs by using the same knowledge that got him on the lam. only thing was he was set up and thus starts an even bigger 'job' to right his wrong that didn't actually right his first wrong. what i liked was the intelligence of the film. it was not a letahl weapon. BUT these superb actors were just not carrying it off for me. i shared this opinion with a couple of males and they were aghast - maybe i just don't have the right genitals to truly enjoy it. b-
step into liquid. i really wanted to watch this on a large screen tv with bad ass surround sound (wink k)but i'd been holding on to it for 2 weeks and it was time to send it back. though i lacked the optimal viewing equipment, i could tell this was a beautiful movie. the movie blurb says you see all kinds of people surfing and in diverse locations. check on the latter, not so much on the former. all the scenery was breathtaking. watching these (like 97%) men ride waves that "would not only crush a volkswagon but take it and bury it next to jimmy hoffa" was exciting for me. back to the diverse locations - i think the surfers of sheboygan, wisconsin were my favorites because...who surfs in wisconsin??!?! the movie was gorgeous, the interviewees were clearly excited and full of tales of righteous waves and also perilous adventures. i don't know why i have a fascination with surfing but i'm sure anyone watching this would get the teeniest inclination to go grab a board too. a
stander. (WARNING: FULL OF SPOILERS) i remember seeing this trailer and thinking i had to see this movie. i don't remember its coming and going but it must've been quick. my overall feeling after watching this movie was disappointment, a lot of it. the story, which is a true one incidentally, centers on andre stander- brilliant, young captian of the johannesburg police department in south africa in the 1970s. after he kills an unarmed kid during a demonstration turned riot in a soweto slum, he flips. he is distraught over his job and the apartheid system and so does the only thing a man can do in that situation: he begins robbing banks. not to sound cynical because his first roberry was after he realizes that the police force in johannesburg is not really set up for solving the crimes but committing them against the blacks. his first few roberries saw him giving the money to random black people on the street. it was admirable but then it went downhill from there. he's caught, leaves, does way more damage and then dies. i suppose it's unfair to say i was disappointed as this was someone's life but i felt the portrayl was uneven. i still wonder why he was always naked the first ten minutes of the film and other such queries. as i told j: i liked the minutes twenty through fifty and the last ten minutes. c.
sneakers. i preface this review with the disclaimer that most of this movie was watched when j was over and so i was a bit distracted. ANYWAY - i was drawn to this movie by the cast listing: robert redford, sidney poitier, ben kingsley, david straitharn, dan akroyd, river phoenix, etc. plus, it came out in 1992 and i missed it somehow! the plot was not so spectacular - smart fugitive told he has to right his wrongs by using the same knowledge that got him on the lam. only thing was he was set up and thus starts an even bigger 'job' to right his wrong that didn't actually right his first wrong. what i liked was the intelligence of the film. it was not a letahl weapon. BUT these superb actors were just not carrying it off for me. i shared this opinion with a couple of males and they were aghast - maybe i just don't have the right genitals to truly enjoy it. b-
step into liquid. i really wanted to watch this on a large screen tv with bad ass surround sound (wink k)but i'd been holding on to it for 2 weeks and it was time to send it back. though i lacked the optimal viewing equipment, i could tell this was a beautiful movie. the movie blurb says you see all kinds of people surfing and in diverse locations. check on the latter, not so much on the former. all the scenery was breathtaking. watching these (like 97%) men ride waves that "would not only crush a volkswagon but take it and bury it next to jimmy hoffa" was exciting for me. back to the diverse locations - i think the surfers of sheboygan, wisconsin were my favorites because...who surfs in wisconsin??!?! the movie was gorgeous, the interviewees were clearly excited and full of tales of righteous waves and also perilous adventures. i don't know why i have a fascination with surfing but i'm sure anyone watching this would get the teeniest inclination to go grab a board too. a
stander. (WARNING: FULL OF SPOILERS) i remember seeing this trailer and thinking i had to see this movie. i don't remember its coming and going but it must've been quick. my overall feeling after watching this movie was disappointment, a lot of it. the story, which is a true one incidentally, centers on andre stander- brilliant, young captian of the johannesburg police department in south africa in the 1970s. after he kills an unarmed kid during a demonstration turned riot in a soweto slum, he flips. he is distraught over his job and the apartheid system and so does the only thing a man can do in that situation: he begins robbing banks. not to sound cynical because his first roberry was after he realizes that the police force in johannesburg is not really set up for solving the crimes but committing them against the blacks. his first few roberries saw him giving the money to random black people on the street. it was admirable but then it went downhill from there. he's caught, leaves, does way more damage and then dies. i suppose it's unfair to say i was disappointed as this was someone's life but i felt the portrayl was uneven. i still wonder why he was always naked the first ten minutes of the film and other such queries. as i told j: i liked the minutes twenty through fifty and the last ten minutes. c.
Tuesday, March 21, 2006
The year was 1996 or I have a lot of work to do and I'm just not ready to do it yet
Ten years ago, it was early 1996. Take this survey, post the results, and see how many things have changed since then.
10 years ago.....
Q1) How old were you?
19
Q2) What Grade Were you in?
2nd year at UNC
Q3) Where did you go to school?
UNC-CH
Q4) Where did you work?
at the campus bookstore...zzzzz....
Q5) Where did you live?
chapel hill
Q6) How was your hair style?
same - shorter than long
Q7) Did you wear braces?
nope
Q8) Did you wear contacts?
nope
Q9) Did you wear glasses?
only when i remembered, as now
Q10) Who was your best friend?
there was a group...
Q11) Who was your boyfriend/girlfriend?
no one- but i was quite the stalker
Q12) Who was your celebrity crush?
g. love
Q13) Who was your regular-person crush?
there were TOO many
Q14) Were you a virgin?
no
Q15) How many piercings did you have?
6
Q16) How many tattoos did you have?
none
Q17) What was your favorite band/singer?
the cast of Rent
Q18) Had you smoked a cigarette yet?
yep
Q19) Had you gotten drunk or high yet?
oh. yeah.
Q20) Had you driven yet?
yep
Q21) If so which car?
i bought a 1990 geo prizm
Q22) Did you have any pets?
nope
Q23) Looking back, are you where you thought you would be in 1996?
not at all but i think that's a good thing
10 years ago.....
Q1) How old were you?
19
Q2) What Grade Were you in?
2nd year at UNC
Q3) Where did you go to school?
UNC-CH
Q4) Where did you work?
at the campus bookstore...zzzzz....
Q5) Where did you live?
chapel hill
Q6) How was your hair style?
same - shorter than long
Q7) Did you wear braces?
nope
Q8) Did you wear contacts?
nope
Q9) Did you wear glasses?
only when i remembered, as now
Q10) Who was your best friend?
there was a group...
Q11) Who was your boyfriend/girlfriend?
no one- but i was quite the stalker
Q12) Who was your celebrity crush?
g. love
Q13) Who was your regular-person crush?
there were TOO many
Q14) Were you a virgin?
no
Q15) How many piercings did you have?
6
Q16) How many tattoos did you have?
none
Q17) What was your favorite band/singer?
the cast of Rent
Q18) Had you smoked a cigarette yet?
yep
Q19) Had you gotten drunk or high yet?
oh. yeah.
Q20) Had you driven yet?
yep
Q21) If so which car?
i bought a 1990 geo prizm
Q22) Did you have any pets?
nope
Q23) Looking back, are you where you thought you would be in 1996?
not at all but i think that's a good thing
what a difference a fortnight makes
i have been horrible in keeping my promise of updating four times weekly. i've become caught up in...i'm not sure exactly what yet i feel my life has changed in a few ways. i often feel that my emotions are going haywire. i hesitate to write this entry because i feel as if i shouldn't feel this overwhelmed but i have to focus on the truth. the truth of my situation is that i have not been involved with anyone in over five years. yep, FIVE. i have had some serious issues in relating to people. what's happened to me recently, recently meaning within these same five years, is that i've done a lot of internal digging. i had to dig up a lot of past hurt...i mean i won't go into it but only to say the work has greatly lessened the pain and it has now allowed me to be more open.
due to said openness, i now find myself getting to know someone who, in just under a month, has challenged me on these previous issues and not in the negative way. he's presented himself to be caring and honest. above all else, i feel respected. this is so new and odd for me so i'm not going to push it and really what can i know in 3 weeks? i do know that i also don't want to do the whole, "i'm gonna hold back and not talk because that'll ruin it" thing either. i suppose i see that as a fault. basically, i just had to type of all this out because if i don't...there may be nasty pieces to pick up. eewww!
well, that was a whole lot of something! phew..i feel better.
OK catch up time: what else, what else? i had a hell of a weekend. my oldest friend came from california and stayed with me until monday morning. i love her dearly. it was such a good time. i like that i can have friends whom i maybe don't speak to for months but when i do see them it's just like picking up where we left off. it's wonderful. so we went to game night and played a good few rounds of taboo. i f'ing love that game! the next day was brunch at k's. the last one. sniff. stephanie schneiderman was so good. i feel i misspelled her name. my bad. anyway, what a great combo of music + food. yum! then i dragged her to mill end to get some more yarn but she loved it and bought a bunch of beads and stuff for her wedding favors so we went home and were crafty and yelling about ncaa basketball. then we went to mt. tabor and as i said yesterday, "we hiked the fuck out that park!" i was in pain. then i took her to dinner at tin shed. what can i say about tin shed other than i love it? i truly think i love that restaurant as much as i do some of my relatives. don't tell. then we just hung out. we can talk forever. then i woke up and took her to the airport at 4:30am. so that plus the talking meant very little sleep for me. not to mention the emotional roller coaster i've been on. so, yeah, it was a good week. i look forward to sleeping it off though. whew!
due to said openness, i now find myself getting to know someone who, in just under a month, has challenged me on these previous issues and not in the negative way. he's presented himself to be caring and honest. above all else, i feel respected. this is so new and odd for me so i'm not going to push it and really what can i know in 3 weeks? i do know that i also don't want to do the whole, "i'm gonna hold back and not talk because that'll ruin it" thing either. i suppose i see that as a fault. basically, i just had to type of all this out because if i don't...there may be nasty pieces to pick up. eewww!
well, that was a whole lot of something! phew..i feel better.
OK catch up time: what else, what else? i had a hell of a weekend. my oldest friend came from california and stayed with me until monday morning. i love her dearly. it was such a good time. i like that i can have friends whom i maybe don't speak to for months but when i do see them it's just like picking up where we left off. it's wonderful. so we went to game night and played a good few rounds of taboo. i f'ing love that game! the next day was brunch at k's. the last one. sniff. stephanie schneiderman was so good. i feel i misspelled her name. my bad. anyway, what a great combo of music + food. yum! then i dragged her to mill end to get some more yarn but she loved it and bought a bunch of beads and stuff for her wedding favors so we went home and were crafty and yelling about ncaa basketball. then we went to mt. tabor and as i said yesterday, "we hiked the fuck out that park!" i was in pain. then i took her to dinner at tin shed. what can i say about tin shed other than i love it? i truly think i love that restaurant as much as i do some of my relatives. don't tell. then we just hung out. we can talk forever. then i woke up and took her to the airport at 4:30am. so that plus the talking meant very little sleep for me. not to mention the emotional roller coaster i've been on. so, yeah, it was a good week. i look forward to sleeping it off though. whew!
Friday, March 17, 2006
recap
i am practically bursting with cheesy gooeyness. i just really want to replay the amazing day i have. i figure this is the best way to do it as no one will listen to me. so i begin.
work. so i go to work and to my delight the overhead lights are all off and the desk lamps and couple of halogens are on. it makes for some very nice mood lighting. due to this, i am able to work all day. by that i mean that i actually work. i do very little web surfing. also, i'm not able too so much because my computer is sloooow. anyway, i do my best and then leave at 3:00.
the massage. i go on to numinosity and meet gina who will be my massage therapist. the room she brings me into is BEAUTIFUL. it's all purples and earth tones and just gorgeous and calm. she has my meditate on areas of my life i have questions about and i draw three cards from an i-ching deck. the first thing i thought of was relationships and the card i draw is 'companionship'. the second thing i thought of was my finaces and the card i drew was 'abundance'. the third card i drew was 'the gentle' and my meditation was on my career. it was spooky how all three coincided very well with what i intend for those three areas of my life. the companionship card was very nice. two women intwined, topless, symbolizing openness. the key words were: interdependence, friendliness, mutual respect and others i can't recall. the abundance card is pretty self explanatory. the the gentle card was about: subtelty, the quiet way - basically words that i like to think describe my way of working with people. it was very cool. so then she has me get undressed to my comfort level and lie down on the table. the fun began. what ensued was the most luxurious 90 of my life. someone just rubbing you and touching you and oiling you and moving you and de-knotting you for that long...i don't have words. well, i do but they're pretty mundane. anyway, i got up and i felt so light i could barely walk. it was the best time of my life up until the next part...well, sort of.
the date. so i rush over to lloyd cinema to pick up j because he'd been waiting for me since 4p. it was a quarter until 6p. what a trooper! anyway, i drive us over to a chinese restaurant. he paid since he felt he owed me because i drove him home on wednesday. we laughed a lot. we always do and i really like that. he has this thing with words (i do too but his is weird). he kept saying, 'fisticuffs' and referring to 'moms mabley'. and the whole time we kept cracking up about his using moms mabley in a story but not knowing who she was. so then we decide to come back to my place. he was so nice and helped me move a futon from the attic to my room for h. then i realize i have no bedding for anyone else so we went off to freddy's to buy some stuff. he helped me out by looking and calling me cheap. i needed that. so we come back home and i put in 'sneakers'. eh. BUT we had a talk about my need to show how much i like him through touch. so i say, "do you have touch issues?" he's all childish and says no, "touch touch touch!" kiddingly. i said, "do you have prolonged touch issues?" he said, no he's just slow. i said, i am too and i know you identify as a christian (sigh) but i do have to express myself otherwise you're just my good friend which is great - you should be but this takes it to a different level. he mulled it over and pulled the old high school cough with an arm around me. it was so sweet! but i had to rearrange myself to fit underneath his head and on his chest. i felt so comfortable. i felt safe and respected. he took my hand and did the whole rubbing it all over thing. oh it was so nice. the thing is i haven't had that kind of sweetness with anyone - ever. i've tried to push it on others. i've asked for it and have been denied. i've longed. i've pined. i've prayed. i felt like my prayers were answered. he was so sweet. we spoke in hushed tones and spoke honestly about a lot of things: our misgivings about one another's belief systems and how it'd interact with our own, about sex (well this wasn't so honest because not enough clarification was given), about how fast it seemed that we got along and decided we wanted to commit to seeing one other. however, we both said we were happily surprised by each other. i like what he said, "we bonded so quickly and i think you should pay attention to people you bond to that quickly". i agreed. so we sat and held hands for so long - i didn't want to get up. i could've done that all night. i actually wanted to do more - OF COURSE - but i think this is good for me right now. i was tellign my roommate that this has been the healthiest two weeks i've ever had - especially since my relationships usually falter in twice that amount of time. so, i gots a boyfriend. finally. cheesy sigh. as i told h, "it's just so nice to be involved with someone who's good".
the drive home. we drag ourselves to my car and i drive him back to gresham. door to door is about 20 minutes - it's taken me that long to go to m's sometime so i don't mind. anyway, on the highway i did something i'd been practicing forever - i reached for his hand and held it all the way to his house. awwwwww.... so we parked in the front and it was sad to see him go. he gave me a little hug and that was it.
my BFF!. i drive out to pdx and pick up h. she was actually waiting at the departing curb and i was at the arrival curb. oops. but i got her and she was so h. just cute and funny and curt. i love her! she thinks i was all effusive in my emails about her coming because of my flirtations but i really do love spending time with her. it's been great so far. she's good people.i hope i can appropriately convey that in a toast during her wedding. wow, her wedding.
how i feel!. i got an email from j today detailing his misadventures with his truck. he is a trip. it ended with something about him writing me as i am in his thoughts a lot. how sweet! basically i feel my cells are vibrating with excitement, hormones, joy, blessings and gratitude. i can't wait to see him again and i don't think it'll be until tuesday night. poo! his touch was amazing. it was better than the last time i had sex. i think. it's been so damn long. hee.
work. so i go to work and to my delight the overhead lights are all off and the desk lamps and couple of halogens are on. it makes for some very nice mood lighting. due to this, i am able to work all day. by that i mean that i actually work. i do very little web surfing. also, i'm not able too so much because my computer is sloooow. anyway, i do my best and then leave at 3:00.
the massage. i go on to numinosity and meet gina who will be my massage therapist. the room she brings me into is BEAUTIFUL. it's all purples and earth tones and just gorgeous and calm. she has my meditate on areas of my life i have questions about and i draw three cards from an i-ching deck. the first thing i thought of was relationships and the card i draw is 'companionship'. the second thing i thought of was my finaces and the card i drew was 'abundance'. the third card i drew was 'the gentle' and my meditation was on my career. it was spooky how all three coincided very well with what i intend for those three areas of my life. the companionship card was very nice. two women intwined, topless, symbolizing openness. the key words were: interdependence, friendliness, mutual respect and others i can't recall. the abundance card is pretty self explanatory. the the gentle card was about: subtelty, the quiet way - basically words that i like to think describe my way of working with people. it was very cool. so then she has me get undressed to my comfort level and lie down on the table. the fun began. what ensued was the most luxurious 90 of my life. someone just rubbing you and touching you and oiling you and moving you and de-knotting you for that long...i don't have words. well, i do but they're pretty mundane. anyway, i got up and i felt so light i could barely walk. it was the best time of my life up until the next part...well, sort of.
the date. so i rush over to lloyd cinema to pick up j because he'd been waiting for me since 4p. it was a quarter until 6p. what a trooper! anyway, i drive us over to a chinese restaurant. he paid since he felt he owed me because i drove him home on wednesday. we laughed a lot. we always do and i really like that. he has this thing with words (i do too but his is weird). he kept saying, 'fisticuffs' and referring to 'moms mabley'. and the whole time we kept cracking up about his using moms mabley in a story but not knowing who she was. so then we decide to come back to my place. he was so nice and helped me move a futon from the attic to my room for h. then i realize i have no bedding for anyone else so we went off to freddy's to buy some stuff. he helped me out by looking and calling me cheap. i needed that. so we come back home and i put in 'sneakers'. eh. BUT we had a talk about my need to show how much i like him through touch. so i say, "do you have touch issues?" he's all childish and says no, "touch touch touch!" kiddingly. i said, "do you have prolonged touch issues?" he said, no he's just slow. i said, i am too and i know you identify as a christian (sigh) but i do have to express myself otherwise you're just my good friend which is great - you should be but this takes it to a different level. he mulled it over and pulled the old high school cough with an arm around me. it was so sweet! but i had to rearrange myself to fit underneath his head and on his chest. i felt so comfortable. i felt safe and respected. he took my hand and did the whole rubbing it all over thing. oh it was so nice. the thing is i haven't had that kind of sweetness with anyone - ever. i've tried to push it on others. i've asked for it and have been denied. i've longed. i've pined. i've prayed. i felt like my prayers were answered. he was so sweet. we spoke in hushed tones and spoke honestly about a lot of things: our misgivings about one another's belief systems and how it'd interact with our own, about sex (well this wasn't so honest because not enough clarification was given), about how fast it seemed that we got along and decided we wanted to commit to seeing one other. however, we both said we were happily surprised by each other. i like what he said, "we bonded so quickly and i think you should pay attention to people you bond to that quickly". i agreed. so we sat and held hands for so long - i didn't want to get up. i could've done that all night. i actually wanted to do more - OF COURSE - but i think this is good for me right now. i was tellign my roommate that this has been the healthiest two weeks i've ever had - especially since my relationships usually falter in twice that amount of time. so, i gots a boyfriend. finally. cheesy sigh. as i told h, "it's just so nice to be involved with someone who's good".
the drive home. we drag ourselves to my car and i drive him back to gresham. door to door is about 20 minutes - it's taken me that long to go to m's sometime so i don't mind. anyway, on the highway i did something i'd been practicing forever - i reached for his hand and held it all the way to his house. awwwwww.... so we parked in the front and it was sad to see him go. he gave me a little hug and that was it.
my BFF!. i drive out to pdx and pick up h. she was actually waiting at the departing curb and i was at the arrival curb. oops. but i got her and she was so h. just cute and funny and curt. i love her! she thinks i was all effusive in my emails about her coming because of my flirtations but i really do love spending time with her. it's been great so far. she's good people.i hope i can appropriately convey that in a toast during her wedding. wow, her wedding.
how i feel!. i got an email from j today detailing his misadventures with his truck. he is a trip. it ended with something about him writing me as i am in his thoughts a lot. how sweet! basically i feel my cells are vibrating with excitement, hormones, joy, blessings and gratitude. i can't wait to see him again and i don't think it'll be until tuesday night. poo! his touch was amazing. it was better than the last time i had sex. i think. it's been so damn long. hee.
Thursday, March 16, 2006
so tired
but i wanted to type something but i've forgotten what and how i was going to phrase what i wanted to. so instead - i took this quiz. i think i was secretly hoping to be shane. oh well.
Which Character from The L Word are You???
you are JENNY! you are sweet, shy, and innocent, but you've got a darker, sexier side...and you cant hold it in forever! you're the closet freak of the group!
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Which Character from The L Word are You???
you are JENNY! you are sweet, shy, and innocent, but you've got a darker, sexier side...and you cant hold it in forever! you're the closet freak of the group!
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Monday, March 13, 2006
bursting
i am full of that silly childish glee that happens when
you meet someone you really, really like. tee hee.
man, those hormones are like whoa!
me likee.
why do all the childish words end in "ee"?
hee.
you meet someone you really, really like. tee hee.
man, those hormones are like whoa!
me likee.
why do all the childish words end in "ee"?
hee.
Sunday, March 12, 2006
sing it baby!
no movies. just a weekend recap.
the coast. there is nothing so soothing to me as water. looking at it, hearing it, playing in it...i love the stuff. the pacific ocean included. so friday afternoon after quite a few moments that proved to me the validity of astrology (mercury retrograde moments), the five of us take off for rockaway beach for a couple of nights of rest and relaxation. there are a little details that could be added but suffice it to say that, for me at least, mission accomplished. i love just talking to my friends. i love observing them. and i damn sure love eating their food. we all took a few walks on the beach. i attempted to walk along the jetty but could only go half way before i looked down. it was over after that. i totally froze. but i was proud of what i could do. that was all saturday. this morning was low key too. how much do i love waffles? a lot! the trip back to portland went a lot faster. probably due to no snow. all in all, i can never not enjoy myself when i'm surrounded by good people, food. oh, and water.
i just got off the phone with j for a 2 hour conversation. oh my god - for all of my protesting i've just resolved to be dating someone. that's what i get...lucky me.
the coast. there is nothing so soothing to me as water. looking at it, hearing it, playing in it...i love the stuff. the pacific ocean included. so friday afternoon after quite a few moments that proved to me the validity of astrology (mercury retrograde moments), the five of us take off for rockaway beach for a couple of nights of rest and relaxation. there are a little details that could be added but suffice it to say that, for me at least, mission accomplished. i love just talking to my friends. i love observing them. and i damn sure love eating their food. we all took a few walks on the beach. i attempted to walk along the jetty but could only go half way before i looked down. it was over after that. i totally froze. but i was proud of what i could do. that was all saturday. this morning was low key too. how much do i love waffles? a lot! the trip back to portland went a lot faster. probably due to no snow. all in all, i can never not enjoy myself when i'm surrounded by good people, food. oh, and water.
i just got off the phone with j for a 2 hour conversation. oh my god - for all of my protesting i've just resolved to be dating someone. that's what i get...lucky me.
Thursday, March 9, 2006
as the grey's girls say...
"seriously? seriously?!"
it's 1.30 in the morning and i'm updating my livejournal. needless to say it was a good night.
dave chapelle's block party. i loved it. loved it! who will also love it: fans of good hip hop and dave chapelle. who won't love it: everyone else and maybe some fans of the above but who don't really like 'concert movies'. too bad for them. a.
it's 1.30 in the morning and i'm updating my livejournal. needless to say it was a good night.
dave chapelle's block party. i loved it. loved it! who will also love it: fans of good hip hop and dave chapelle. who won't love it: everyone else and maybe some fans of the above but who don't really like 'concert movies'. too bad for them. a.
Wednesday, March 8, 2006
"kathy - did you fuck my dog?"
pretty persuasion. i walk into movie madness and all i really want is to see is something silly and funny. i see this movie and i remember some review that basically called it "mean girls" with an attitude. well, they weren't lying. it was dark, i mean "happiness" dark. truth is it took a lot to keep watching it. it was painful. the characters were too young to be so nasty. think of "heathers" times two. it was harsh and the movie didn't really have a point to me. it felt like all for shock and in that sense, it worked. in terms of being silly and funny, not so much. watch with caution. c.
but it's time to face the truth...
so i was all confused and upset because i didn't know how i felt and i was worried i was getting 'too involved' because all i did was write an email and didn't hear back from the guy. what the hell, right!? well, he wrote back. it was fine. i was, er, AM nuerotic and that's ok. so hopefully we'll go see 'dave chapelle's block party' tomorrow night.
jesus.
that's why i put myself in hibernation mode with men - i get insane. fucking balance.
jesus.
that's why i put myself in hibernation mode with men - i get insane. fucking balance.
Tuesday, March 7, 2006
exactly what i DIDN'T want
so, i went against my stance and went roller skating with d and her guy and this guy she believed would be great for me. well, this is exactly why i'm pissed off right now.
the "problem" is that i had a good time, i would even venture to say great. the "problem" is that i've decided to be true to my feelings and so i emailed him to tell him so. the "problem" is that i also, within this email, asked him to let me know if we could stop communicating through d and meet up and talk about what was said to her. the "problem" is that he hasn't responded. the "problem" is that i am bothered by this and it's only been one day. and finally, the "problem" is that i knew this would happen because it always does. i get into my head about what i think should be happening and that never matches up with what does happen.
exactly what i didn't want.
the "problem" is that i had a good time, i would even venture to say great. the "problem" is that i've decided to be true to my feelings and so i emailed him to tell him so. the "problem" is that i also, within this email, asked him to let me know if we could stop communicating through d and meet up and talk about what was said to her. the "problem" is that he hasn't responded. the "problem" is that i am bothered by this and it's only been one day. and finally, the "problem" is that i knew this would happen because it always does. i get into my head about what i think should be happening and that never matches up with what does happen.
exactly what i didn't want.
Sunday, March 5, 2006
"i'm proud to be a little out of touch"
i love george clooney.
the oscars. yes, i've gone review mad. anyway the oscars were great. fuck the naysayers: jon stewart leibowitz was great. i'm glad that george clooney won although for the contest i entered i picked matt dillon and i stand by it because while clooney did a good job i though dillon did a better one. i was not surprised with any of the other awards EXCEPT three-six mafia winning for 'it's hard out here for a pimp'. fuck yeah! i liked all three songs but i admit - i bought into the stereotype and didn't think they'd give an oscar to a rap song. thankfully, i was wrong. the truth is, as was said on npr also, that if you took that song out of the movie - the movie would lose something. the other songs/movies - not so much. so good. and, of course, that prompted my favorite jon stewart quote of the night, "for those of you keeping track at home: number of oscars for martin scorsese, zero...three-six mafia, one." it was a great show and i didn't even mind the inane lily tomlin/meryl streep tribute to robert altman intro. speech. the fashion was very boring. everyone looked the same, well except for michelle williams, selma hayek and helena bonham carter, it was all pale dresses or black dresses. yawn. and someone get maggie gyllenhall a back brace. she's gonna be stooped over completely by the time she's 45.
otherwise, sunday was good. i met up with the girlies for some fabric/yarn shopping at mill end. great place. then i ran an ass load of errands. then i had m over for oscar watching. i made a "breakfast for dinner" dinner. we had challah french toast, hash browns and turkey bacon. yum. i had a scone we could've split for dessert but that didn't happen. yay us. then i just read and did some snail mail letters. it was actually quite peaceful.
the bummer of the weekend was missing out on the March Fourth concert saturday night. it was f'ing sold out! i was truly bummed. i was all set to dance- especially after the pre-concert dance party we had at m's place. so we sulked and then i suggested bowling that was very lukewarmly accepted. we get to the interstate lanes place and cosmic bowling didn't start until 10pm and it was 9.15p. so....we sat around there, ostensibly, waiting until 10 to play. but you know how things happen and eventually d&g headed home and i went to m's and watched the last two episodes of the last season of 'sex and the city'. whatever.
the oscars. yes, i've gone review mad. anyway the oscars were great. fuck the naysayers: jon stewart leibowitz was great. i'm glad that george clooney won although for the contest i entered i picked matt dillon and i stand by it because while clooney did a good job i though dillon did a better one. i was not surprised with any of the other awards EXCEPT three-six mafia winning for 'it's hard out here for a pimp'. fuck yeah! i liked all three songs but i admit - i bought into the stereotype and didn't think they'd give an oscar to a rap song. thankfully, i was wrong. the truth is, as was said on npr also, that if you took that song out of the movie - the movie would lose something. the other songs/movies - not so much. so good. and, of course, that prompted my favorite jon stewart quote of the night, "for those of you keeping track at home: number of oscars for martin scorsese, zero...three-six mafia, one." it was a great show and i didn't even mind the inane lily tomlin/meryl streep tribute to robert altman intro. speech. the fashion was very boring. everyone looked the same, well except for michelle williams, selma hayek and helena bonham carter, it was all pale dresses or black dresses. yawn. and someone get maggie gyllenhall a back brace. she's gonna be stooped over completely by the time she's 45.
otherwise, sunday was good. i met up with the girlies for some fabric/yarn shopping at mill end. great place. then i ran an ass load of errands. then i had m over for oscar watching. i made a "breakfast for dinner" dinner. we had challah french toast, hash browns and turkey bacon. yum. i had a scone we could've split for dessert but that didn't happen. yay us. then i just read and did some snail mail letters. it was actually quite peaceful.
the bummer of the weekend was missing out on the March Fourth concert saturday night. it was f'ing sold out! i was truly bummed. i was all set to dance- especially after the pre-concert dance party we had at m's place. so we sulked and then i suggested bowling that was very lukewarmly accepted. we get to the interstate lanes place and cosmic bowling didn't start until 10pm and it was 9.15p. so....we sat around there, ostensibly, waiting until 10 to play. but you know how things happen and eventually d&g headed home and i went to m's and watched the last two episodes of the last season of 'sex and the city'. whatever.
Saturday, March 4, 2006
good day sunshine!
i think that's part of a chorus of some 60s song. who knows?
today fucking rocked! how gorgeous was it?! very, if i may answer my own rhetorically posed question.
so - movies? i met up with a new acquaintance and had some brunch and went to the movies downtown. i love the fox theatre because it's clean, big, stadium and mostly indie.
transamerica. i'm SO glad i got to squeeze this movie in before the oscars. you keep hearing about the best actress race really being between reese witherspoon and felicity huffman. as i like to say, i want to be an informed dissenter during the oscars. i digress. felicity huffman was superb as a pre-op MTF transexual named Sabrina Claire Osborne. i friggin' love that name. anyway, it's basically 'a funny thing happened on the way to operating room'. she discovers she has a son. road trip ensues and the whole 'really facing yourself' drama plays out. i won't talk more as to not ramble. talking about it won't ruin anything or become a spoiler but it's such a nice little story that it's best to just see it on screen. i truly enjoyed how it ended also, it was not so hollywood with a little red bow on it. some things just aren't easily resolved. a-
so that was a good movie viewing experience, well, except for the alarm that went off when there was 20 minutes left. so after that i got home and rested for about 20 minutes before i had to go back out and meet d&m for dinner at tin shed. I LOVE TIN SHED! then we all headed over to m's and just hung out. actually, we danced. m claimed she couldn't dance but it wasn't really true. we showed her a few moves though.
d has a fascinating theory about racial differences with dancing. she's all "the main reason a lot of white people get off rhythm is because they stay on the 1 and 3 beats while black people usually move to the 2 and 4 beats". so i watched them dance and i observed myself and lo and behind she was right!!!!! and the thing with the 1 and 3 beat is that they are awkward beats- they begin and stop suddenly - there is no flow to them. see if you notice...
today fucking rocked! how gorgeous was it?! very, if i may answer my own rhetorically posed question.
so - movies? i met up with a new acquaintance and had some brunch and went to the movies downtown. i love the fox theatre because it's clean, big, stadium and mostly indie.
transamerica. i'm SO glad i got to squeeze this movie in before the oscars. you keep hearing about the best actress race really being between reese witherspoon and felicity huffman. as i like to say, i want to be an informed dissenter during the oscars. i digress. felicity huffman was superb as a pre-op MTF transexual named Sabrina Claire Osborne. i friggin' love that name. anyway, it's basically 'a funny thing happened on the way to operating room'. she discovers she has a son. road trip ensues and the whole 'really facing yourself' drama plays out. i won't talk more as to not ramble. talking about it won't ruin anything or become a spoiler but it's such a nice little story that it's best to just see it on screen. i truly enjoyed how it ended also, it was not so hollywood with a little red bow on it. some things just aren't easily resolved. a-
so that was a good movie viewing experience, well, except for the alarm that went off when there was 20 minutes left. so after that i got home and rested for about 20 minutes before i had to go back out and meet d&m for dinner at tin shed. I LOVE TIN SHED! then we all headed over to m's and just hung out. actually, we danced. m claimed she couldn't dance but it wasn't really true. we showed her a few moves though.
d has a fascinating theory about racial differences with dancing. she's all "the main reason a lot of white people get off rhythm is because they stay on the 1 and 3 beats while black people usually move to the 2 and 4 beats". so i watched them dance and i observed myself and lo and behind she was right!!!!! and the thing with the 1 and 3 beat is that they are awkward beats- they begin and stop suddenly - there is no flow to them. see if you notice...
Friday, March 3, 2006
dutchboy
crappy day at work, yada, yada, yada.
i just went to the movies with m&t. man, i love that kennedy school!
walk the line. actually this was the second time i'd seen this movie. so obviously i like it. well, i liked it more this second time. i do believe reese will win the oscar for best actress and i wish that joaqin would but he won't. well, i don't know. my general problem with biopics is this: how are you really to judge? like last year with jamie foxx in 'ray'. it's always good to see someone's life played out on screen but can you really judge the acting? i guess you can but i find it hard. anyway, this movie is totally enjoyable and heartbreaking all at once. there've (oh look new word!) been many comments made that this is 'ray' but with white people and that's part of my issue - these are two different people's lives. they may've had a similar trajectory but they are not the same at all. respect to the men in black and black men. a.
what else did i do today? nothing.
i just went to the movies with m&t. man, i love that kennedy school!
walk the line. actually this was the second time i'd seen this movie. so obviously i like it. well, i liked it more this second time. i do believe reese will win the oscar for best actress and i wish that joaqin would but he won't. well, i don't know. my general problem with biopics is this: how are you really to judge? like last year with jamie foxx in 'ray'. it's always good to see someone's life played out on screen but can you really judge the acting? i guess you can but i find it hard. anyway, this movie is totally enjoyable and heartbreaking all at once. there've (oh look new word!) been many comments made that this is 'ray' but with white people and that's part of my issue - these are two different people's lives. they may've had a similar trajectory but they are not the same at all. respect to the men in black and black men. a.
what else did i do today? nothing.
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