"i hate everyone"

little miss sunshine. i finally got to see this. i grabbed the guy and took him to cinemagic on hawthorne. we settled in with our popcorn and got to laughing. that's the first great thing about the movie. it's quite funny. you may not be doubled over but there's a subtle humor, quite dark at times, that remains throughout the movie. the story is simple enough: a family- husband, wife, wife's brother, son, daughter and husband's father- take a road trip to get the daughter the "little miss sunshine" pageant. like any other road movie, people grow and change along the way but what i found refreshing was that it was focused on the individuals in the family and the family together. yes, everyone has their own issue but once that's changed there's no way the change can't effect the family dynamic. i appreciated that being shown. it was a great little movie and i highly recommend it. i say bring on the dvd already! a-.

strange dream

i usually have strange ones (shoutout to ben: as soon as i can afford anything extra, i'm giving you a call!!) and last night's had me wake up with a headache. i don't like waking up in pain.

crazy dream recap: i'm married to josh and we live in this ridiculous mansion with about 30 other people. the main characters are this couple that i'm somehow related to. the husband of this pair keeps hitting on me. my husband won't have sex with me and our section of the mansion is such a mess that there are clothes everywhere and i see lots of roaches. i tell him i'm leaving him unless we clean up.

i go to the wild party that has spontaneously started downstairs. i'm dancing and having fun. all of the sudden i'm aware that i came with my sister and some friends. i go find them and they're leaving. i say i have to go to the bathroom and i'll meet them out front. in the stall, i find an 'iPod' that someone has left. her name is on the back and just as i'm *er* finishing, she walks in the get it. i tell her, "i almost punched you but luckily it's you coming for what you left behind". so then i find the car my sister and friends are in and then we take off.

we end up in this drive-in/diner. our waitstaff are those impossibly thin, snotty, manhattan types and when everyone orders a plate of fries they tell us how much comes on one plate and how we can share just one between us. well, this woman we're with (who looks like one of those characters carol burnett used to play, complete with beehive) tells him, "i'm a piggy, she's a piggy, we're all piggies and i want my food or there'll be trouble". he looks aghast and we laugh because apparently this is this woman's role - the group jokester.

then, blessedly, i wake up.

no more going through travel pictures before bed.

it's a wrap!

so all the traveling has been done. the guy and i have met one another's families and friends and it was all good. it's such a strange thing. the nerves were completely wasted because everything was fine. it makes sense because we get along well so it'd make sense that we'd individually get along with those who were raised with us. maybe. who knows? but it worked out and i'm glad.

so we got a lot of questions about our future together. we don't know. the truth is - i love him to bits. it's been roughly eight months and i've loved every minute of it and the best thing is that it only gets better everyday. whatever happens between us - i'm ready. *grin.

i suppose i'm inspired by all the love around me. was that the cheesiest thing you've ever read? sorry. but i'm in a place where i love hearing about the upcoming and ongoing couplings. it seems like everyone around me is either meeting that 'someone', shacking up or gettin' hitched. it's kind of odd. or maybe i'm just noticing...

in the rest of my life: i've been reading like a fiend. i'm excited about that! i'm not reading literature by any means but it's good to fall in love with a book again.

i'm also moving again. sigh. i just realized i don't make as much money as i'd like and i gotta go from here. yes, everyone i know (almost) thinks i live way too far away but i disagree. it's accessible and it'd be nice to be closer to work no doubt. the bottom line is that i SUCK at finding somewhere to live. if j and i ever reach that point - finding our home is going to be ALL up to him. i get impatient and worry so much i take my mind to a place where i'm homeless. it's bad. so i looked around a little more and found a much closer-in place near a couple of friends. sweet. and most importantly, it's affordable. sigh.

i'm into sighing a lot. j laughs at me. have you seen "beaches"? he likes to say: "eris feels deeply". it was funny at first. i've asked him to stop.

also, i've been drafted as 'coordinator' for my family's upcoming family reunion. that's actually fun (right now) because i get to call everyone in my family. i called my uncle's house and my 'little' cousin answered the phone. he sounded like a grown man. i can't even beleive he's in high school.

i've said too much.

'night.

question

i have had cable for three months now and EVERY TIME i turn to the channel - i have yet to see a music video on MTV. that stands for Music Tele Vision, right?

"...and ignore the fact that i have an erection..."

talledega nights: the ballad of ricky bobby. i know the job of any movie critic is to write a comprehensive synopsis of the movie they're talking about. well, i'm a wannabe movie critic so that doesn't apply to me. the truth is: what can i say? it's a movie STARRING will ferrel about a dim-witted nascar driver. there's no depth here people. actually, that's what i liked about the movie. i went in for a good time, a few belly laughs and i was not disappointed. john c. reilly, imho, is a phenomenal actor and he did well in the 'mindless comedy' genre also. michael duncan clark and sacha baron cohen (what's with the three names!?) were also great in their supporting roles, especially sacha (i'm so looking forward to borat)to whom the subject quote can be attributed. check it out if you can stand will ferrel in his underwear. it's not for everyone.b-.