niiiiice

man, the last five days have been amazing. i have been walking, walking, walking, studying, studying, studying, eating, sweating and seeing old friends. what's to complain about?

i have heeded the advice of wizened ones and avoided the one conveyor sushi i know of (thanks K) but did partake in a good ol' safeway apple fritter. seriously, they are the best. i got a whole foods scone and had a baja burrito tonight with maureen. JC cooked dinner last night for me and jenny. that was just a fantastic few hours!  just many, many good times.

what's been most impressive to me is the ease with which i've fallen back in relationship with the city and its people. it's always easy to love somewhere when you don't have to work or do anything but explore and socialize. but that's not it because JC and i have done plenty of remembering of awful things past as well. what's different in our recollection is the lack of anger. for example, i can recall atlanta traffic and new york city rush and have a visceral reaction. when i think of portland faux liberals or the sometimes overwhelming lack of 'others' i merely sigh. there's no shaking or bile in the blood. that's good, right?

we're having dinner tomorrow with geahk. i feel a odd (my therapist would undoubtedly say 'false') sense of responsibility for all of us to have a good time. i hope that this is the case and we'll not focus on or ignore the dreaded elephant in the room.